The noble man wants to create new things and a new virtue. The good man wants the old things and that the old things shall be preserved.
But that is not the danger for the noble man–that he may become a good man–but that he may become an impudent one, a derider, a destroyer.
Alas, I have known noble men who lost their highest hope. And henceforth they slandered all high hopes.Friedrich Nietzsche, "Thus Spoke Zarathustra"
Today I will speak to you who have lost your faith.
And I see you, labouring under scars you will not admit; I see you, cradling your own broken souls in your arms. I the goat-faced man, with my high goat's voice, I who have begged on corners while rocks were thrown at my head, I who was born in the days of the carnival as an amusement, will speak to you now.
You have been injured. This is true; I see the scars. I see the old brown blood where you tried to hold yourselves together. Let none deride the injury, for it is plain in the timbre of your voice and the tremor of your steps. And you think, it was your faith that injured you. Your faith which allowed your injury. Your faith which brought you pain.
My friends, what I say today is not a new thing, it is not a novel truth. But it is truth. A man who slipped and snapped his leg might blame his leg for the hurt, but would he cut it off? A child, burned by a hot meal once, might taste nothing for a while, but would he eat no more on its account?
You may truly say it is not safe to have faith in this world, where you may be mocked and derided, where you may fail your own expectations, where you may find yourself alone. But you may as truly say it is not safe to live in this world, where you may be accidentally caught up by machines and killed, where the sun may burn you and the wind cut you, where you may find yourself alone.
You are suicides, my friends, who have cut away your faith and live in fear of another one claiming you. You are the dead who call to the living, those of you who have lost your faith and warn others against their own. I see you, but I cannot despise you; you have forgotten the blessings of beating blood, the warmth of hope and exultation.
I am your shaman as well. Your priest and kind ear. I am installed in this role to be your father and teacher, and I listen with sympathy to your footsteps. Even should you deride me, even should you spurn me, I listen to you with sympathy.
It is not an easy thing to regain faith, as it is not easy to raise the dead. But a thousand faiths await you. If you have faith in the pen you hold one day you will have faith in the hand that holds it; faith in the hand will lead to faith in the mind that moves it; faith in the mind will lead to faith in the soul which surrounds it. From here all things are possible.
Do not surrender to black thoughts; they are your deriders, and they will style themselves as your gods. But it is not god which wishes to cast you down before it, for gods wish to raise you up that they may see you in the glory they create. Gods have no use for broken things. What are these gods but gods that have lost their faith?
And expect, my friends, that it will hurt. All dead things hurt when they return to life. But it is the ache of growth, of laughter too hard, of muscles tired after a good day's run. It is the ache which will subside and leave you strong and ready to stand taller, laugh longer, run further.
And when you have faith again, in yourself, in beauty, in hope, in your lovers, in your hands, in your mind, in anything, I will smile great joy at your life, for indeed, you have begun to live again.
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